<bgsound src="http://www.angelfire.com/planet/bleedingscreams/AEONSPOKE.mp3"> Reinvent of The Haven..: November 2005

Sunday, November 13, 2005

My Mouth Speaks 131105

sigh..been confined..for two weeks for misfiring a blank round...
Ah!! wadeva...
Oh ya..before i forget..
Blueapple: i do not how to add comment to your blog..very confussing...i got lost in your blog...
I've amnesia...
Damn...

My Mouth Speaks Confined...

"A mistake done..
A punishment issued...
A charge in due...
A chance not given...
A road to boredom..
A glimpse of regret....
Take my bag and walk away...
Hopin the fruit of guilt will decay..
I stroll around the corner of agony...
Turned to the state of despairity...
Straining to get to the world of eternity..
Is the act of my stupidity...
Falling stars upon my wish..
Feelings that i wanna banish...
Just can't seem to vanish...
How was i so foolish?...
Living my life just isn't my bag...
For i've been living the life of beg...
For years i yearn to die...
For years i learn to fly..
To point of no return..."

My Mouth Speaks Confined...

Friday, November 11, 2005

My Mouth Speaks Drug..

"I took you in...
Tried you out...
Now..
I'm livin in the fear..
Of addiction..
You are the perfect drug..
To keep my worries away..
Ice...
Is who you are...
I fear i might fall for you deep..
Feelings that i wouldn't wanna keep..
But its addiction that slowly seeps...
Feelings like this...
Only Mr Ketamine would understand..
Tormenting confussion...
Insomnic Agony...
Voices speak for thier own..
Within the straight zone...
Its not wrong...
Its not right...
But its just the principal of rights...
I abandon the sin of pride...
And obtain the sin of lust........."

Saturday, November 05, 2005

My Mouth Speaks Suffocation..

"The voice of pain..
The voice of misery..
The voice of sorrow..
The voice of mercy...
Wants out...
Out of the throat where they are...
The echoes of decimation...
Runnin around my heart...
My mind...
Are chances only meant to be given out once?
The obsession..
My depression...
I scream with silence...
Under the blood red rain...
As i hear the melody of my end...
I rip my nails away from my fingers...
Please...
Stop this palaver...
Between me and i...
The cynic who dwells within..
Is no one but myself....

Thursday, November 03, 2005

My Mouth Speaks Tears...

"I'm Cryin?
I'm Dyin...
I'm Flyin?
I'm Killin...
Fear to fall..
For the Devoidence that's here again...
She is there...
She is far...
I reach out for her..
She is gone...
Numb i feel?
Pain is real...
My sacred feelings have been stolen..
Which will make things worsen...
I plead to cry...
For my eyes are dry....."

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

My Mouth Speaks Boredom..

ho hum....today..the 1 of nov 2005..Nua"ed" whole day at home today..for i had a frickin bad day yesterday.....
First : i was lookin forward to meet two friends to hang out on halloween decevin myself that it would be "fun"....
In the end kena put aeroplance by one..and pang seh by the other...=\ what a loser..
So i went on ahead and meet my brother...
Second : We were walking at bishan..crossing this traffic light...i had a sling bag slinged to my left..both of my hands were in my jacket's pocket...
2 sibei kiasu kiampah aunties rushing across the road cause they scared they miss the bus...
My peeps were infront..
2 aunties with NTUC plastic bags..
Missed my friend..But hit my sling bag..
Her canned food drops out of the bag and hits the road...
And she had e guts to scold me : " SHIT LAR YOU!!" and she presents a lan jiao face for me to see...
She stared at me all the way until she got up the bus...
SMLJ?!?!?! fucking hell i'd have slapped her if i could..so old liao still so uncivilised and rude..
Then i relac...go home use com..
So BORED!!
Its really amazing how boredom can be added onto your frustrations...
Online friends asked to call up and have a conference to kill boredom..
Called up..
Once upon hearing how my friend sounded like..
It immediately reminded me of one of my ex-girlfriends... =I was in a shittier mood then..
Pulled a long face for the mirror to see....
Felt like crap..Felt like dying...cause nothin's right..
Went to shower...
Came out..
Couldn't remember what happened before i showered.....
Slept...
Woke up..
Couldn't remember what happened after i showered... -__-
Geez...i have brain probs......
BAD DAYS BAD DAYS!!!!!!!
BAD DAYS DON'T LAST BUT BAD TIMES DO!!!
Argg...
Ho hum~