<bgsound src="http://www.angelfire.com/planet/bleedingscreams/AEONSPOKE.mp3"> Reinvent of The Haven..: July 2008

Saturday, July 26, 2008

My Mouth Speaks Look Back!


you know..
as i look back and read my posts...
have i really grown up?
or am i still that kid dwelling within self pity?

"ambition : to be a tattoo artist"

i remember i read that somewhere while cruising along my old posts.

hahahaha..
dreams do come true sometimes.
it's one of the things i ever asked for in life..

i believe i've grown..
but still whining the same shit..
but hey..
when i read back..
i laugh at myself with all that trivial shit i used to be upset about
since i have bigger and more serious probs now..

i've grown..
ain't young anymore..
it's things like these that make you think..
dwell..
ponder..

GeeEeEeEee
so much have changed..
so many people i've met..
from a nerd..
to someone like me now..(though still a nerd but do NOT look like it)

i am glad this blog is a form of a personal diary..
not much like to read it..
but i write it for myself..
for YOU(you peeps know who you are)
and..
for the future me to read it..
as i am typing this..
the future me might just be reading past this..

so many people to meet..
i'm glad..
Teacher brought life to my selfless death again..
i am glad.
Thanks.
so many people to thank..
i love you guys..
thanks..

i've figured relation isn't my thing..
i'll just wait for Miss A.
which will never come true..
BUT!
hey man.
when good passes your life..
cherish it.(in more than one ways *winks)

i ain't letting no relation drag my career down..
i wanna play!
woot!

Thursday, July 10, 2008

My Mind Speaks Why?

have been in very bad mood swings lately.
very frustrated at the littlest things.
without a reason?
maybe its the sleep.
haven't had a proper one.
fuck.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

My Mind Speaks Sadistic Desires.

once upon a time.
people used to say the happiest moments are priceless.
to live life with happiness so when it comes to the end..
you look back and smile.


fuck all that i'd say.
the happiest moments never come cheap.
and your life only begins the moment you hang your neck
unto the slipknot you've tied to your ceiling and it ends the moment you stop breathing.
altogether?
your life is worth bout 10 secs at most.

and that was quoted by a good thai friend of Elson's.
somehow i find it true.
very very true.

life isn't bout living in it.
it's bout what you've lived through it.
life only happens when you've finally lived through it.
death is a new life.

admit it.
love is the new hate.
hate is the new life.
in life you'll always need someone to hate.
maybe i've overdone that point that i'm failing so badly in love.
but nevertheless.
it doesn't bother me as much as it used to.
i can't commit as much.

maybe thats why rejections seem to be the new yes.



rejections and failures.
they are what makes a person stronger.


but i'm just not ready for that.
affected is what i am now.

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

My Mouth Speaks...a leg na.







i think i should just stop before it consumes me.again.
i should just stop.