My Mouth Speaks INDIA..

i'll be going to india soon..oh well..
sucks..
didn't even get a chance to see Angel..
oh well...this is life isn't it?..
"Pain but tearless..
everything seems so pointless..
am i that useless?"
MAY EVIL TRUIMPH OVER HOLYNESS

My Mouth Speaks INDIA..

My Mouth Speaks Goner..

~ H A P P I N E S S ~

"Do you think i'm really happy all the time?"
"I'm just messin with your feelings mother fuck"
"Do you actually believe in fate?"
"Don't bullshit with me ass wipe"
"YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHATS CALLED MISERY"
"I have nothing left.."
"Listen to the silent screams of plea"
"Death is the only path to life"

My Mouth Speaks Comments..

hmmm..dogSoup's been wondering...

So far...

What do you think of me?

What kind of person do you think i am?

For Those who haven't seen me..
How would you expect me to look like?

Do you really think i am who i am here?

All the answers to my questions don't really matter to me..
just that i've been trying to take my mind off somethings..
at least when i read the answers...
i've something else to think about..
i don't know to laugh or to cry..
too numb perhaps..
or too emotional..
its not like i'm a despOrAdo or what..
just that..
when you see something who / that matters to you..
you would wanna try to seize it right?..
oh well..
i can't stand going on feelingless relations..
and my friends keep asking me to do that..
its rather irritating..
but oh well..
like i said..perhaps i'm just being too emotional..
and yes Fireburn big bro..
i know what you are gonna reply..
so try harder in your comments >=)
i've been sticking around with you for long enough
that i know whats gonna come out next..
but hey~ i know you care bro..
and i care for ya too as a big bro..
but sometimes..you gotta express to others
before others can express to you..
"What kind of person you are..
Means what kind of friends and customers
you'll have"
Very true...
And i can expect what Spinnee sis would reply too..
i observe alot you know? =)
Ciaos

My Mouth Speaks Perfect Sight..

Perfect sight = Meet Angel
Confussed and stoned = Angel
Retardation = me
i was doing sentry on friday the whole for
my company's live firing session..
it consumed my whole friday..
which means we didn't sleep through the friday night
leaving us to book out only on sat morning..
we booked out at 7 plus plus a.m...
after which i rushed home..
rested for awhile...
ran out of my house..
i went to her workplace to have my lunch..
man!
SHE IS REALLY
THAT
DAMN
SWEET!!!
i was electricuted again..
but i was so shy that i didn't talk..
and she was shy too..
after i left..
i smsed her saying sorry that i didn't
tell her i was there..
then she replied that i'm cute..
=D !
happy like fuck..
but it dosen't last..
skali she just entertaining me?..
hah...
anyways..
i went to marina square to get some candles..
but i only got a few..
so i left for town..
and got all my other ornaments there..
it took up the entire day!
imagine! i didn't sleep since friday 4 a.m!!
which means i was really stoned!!
ok anyways...after i got everything..
i settled down behind taka..
and started to bring all the things i bought..
and make a valentine's day gift for her..
it was suppose to be a display candle thingy..
but it turned out to be really spooky..
i swear..
i didn't expected it to turn out this way..
but anyways..i stored all my concentration
during the day just for that particular moment..
after 2 hours..
i was done!
woot!!
i bought a blue rose and a card..
i don't know what blue rose meant..
but anyhow only..
lol..
so i wrapped it up..
and that was my first time wrapping..
you know..i hardly do any gifts for anyone..
i seriously don't know what triggered me to do this..lol
anyways..i went to woodlands to meet her after all this..
but she met me really late..
like 1 a.m..
but in anyways..i didn't mind..
when i saw her..
wah piangs...
scary lar...
but was again..
*btz btz btz* electrication in progress..
but i was quiet..
damn shy lar...
fuck i tried to talk to her...
it was me , Harry and Angel..
harry was in between us..he tried to make us both talk..
but i was sure she's more interested in the conversation with harry..
she said she was waiting for a friend on a bike..
wah lau..hear already...sad...
i know i do not stand a chance with her..
oh well..
but in anyways...
i still gave her the gift..
dunno la..i was already stoned like a cock by 4 a.m..
sigh...
P:S : i try to post the picture of the display asap

My Mouth Speaks Earlier..

YES!!
I FINALLY CALLED HER!!
she's damn nice to talk to la!
damn....
falling deeper..
how how how?!?!?!?!
die lar..
she sounds confussed and blur..
but she's sweet la..
then i kan chiong
dunno what to talk..
dumb fuck me..
hopefully this goes well..
its been 1 year...
that Hamster's been on my mind..
its too long..
finally she's off my mind..
hopefully i don't fail again..
serious..

My Mouth Speaks Rusty..

Man..this is the first time i feel so lost , confussed and sad
while trying to talk to a girl..
whats wrong with me?..
Sis said i'm too tensed..yeah its true!..
but why am i like that?..
this is not the first time i like a girl..
whats with the intensity?
Firebro's there to support too..
what the hell am i doing?..
its weird!!
i feel weird!!
i know what i am doing but i do not..
argg..i hate this feeling!!!
i just knew her man!
wtf?!
kan chiong spydur?..
foork it..
ARgg!!!!
Spiderman vs Wonderman!!!
DUNNO LA!!! ARGG!!!!
AIYO!!!!
i don't want to think already lar!!!!
fARq!!!!
aiya..i dunno what i doing..fuck..
i go drink milk..
yesterday waited for her sms reply until 4 plus..
then i realised it was 4 plus..forgot to eat...
hungry like fuck...
haix..
then i sent her a good night message..hope she replies..
sigh..
\m/

My Mouth Speaks SCREWED..

man..i think i'm a born screwball...i screw up everything!!
i screwed up the gig..
i screwed up when tryin to ask Angel out..
i screw up everything!!!
ARGGG
perhaps i should start to believe those chinese saying
thingys...
they sound truthfully logical..
damn..
i wrestled my friend today..
i whacked the shit out of him..
i gave him a "F5" on the ground..
and then another F5 into his locker..
locked him inside..
SINNER!!!
and then i hurt my elbow now resulting with a blue black..
pain..
that arse actually SCRATCHED ME!! bitch!!
sigh..i don't know..
i'm too paranoid..
i hate it..
i hate myself for being like that..
argg..
whatever fuck it..