My Mouth Speaks Messed.

Been losin my temper alot lately.
and my best friend's been losin himself lately.
it's all because of his girl.
why is it that every fucking time.
guys crumble to shit because of that?
i've grown immune to it.
like a lifeless zombie i live now.
i suddenly lost interest in EVERYTHING.
my job pays me so low that i don't even have any money to save.
it's really fucked like how much i like this job but yet i can't stay.
sounds familiar eh? how much i love but i can't.
Deh-jah-voooo.
right now i have no one by me.
i'm crumbling myself to shit this time.
and i feel like shit.
but i enjoy it.
i seem to have this new hobby.
indulging in tortures.
fuck everything.
i've been such an angry wolf lately.
i'd have killed if i could.

and seriously.
Appreciate and be considerate of what you fucking have instead of fulfilling your fucking self you fucking shit.Do you know how much fucking shit you're putting him through?
you're so fucking selfish and childish.
Go eat your own shit you bitch.
you come from a fucking well off family.
With a maid to serve even.
Why do you have to torture him with your selfishness?
By building your happiness on his misery?
Do you know how much he has fucking changed?
You said you love him.
Fuck off.
You can't even accept him.
You're really one fuck childish arrogant fucking slut.
You just had to spite him in anyway you can find.
I'll fucking kill you if i could.
I've never seen such a fucking slut besides L.
F-U-C-K YOU.
Leave him alone and find some other dick.
You're turning him into me.
A lifeless zombie do you know?
No?
I was right.
Fuck you.
Moron.

My Mouth Speaks Unncessary Thoughts.

you know.
there are times where you think alot.
and sometimes these thoughts really put your entire day down the drain.
at this current point where i am standing and living..
some friends i've made.so close back then.so far now.
but some friends were close.and now still are.
new friends come in.
one became close.
so much shit has happened.
but yet i'm living like i don't bother.
i do.
But then again.maybe i shouldn't.
i'm starting to fuck care the things around me more often lately.
maybe i'm just getting tired?
or maybe i've woken up?


after so long.i just realised something.
i have micky mouse ears.
and they look fucking ugly.

yesterday while walking amongst queue to board a bus.
there was this indian kid and his family who was chasing after another bus.
the kid ran behind me and tripped on my heels.
he took on the role as superman and flew to the ground.
Flat.
i took a look over my shoulders.
and boarded the bus.
i felt guilty.
for 5 mins.
why?
cause i was sleeping on a bus.
no one woke me up to alight.
i got locked in the bus.
called up the interchange.
the driver came.
he was an indian driver.
and he gave me that fucking look on his face which says :"CHAO CHEE BYE"
i was really pissed at that.
it is not that i am racist.
just that those that often irritate people and piss people off real bad..
are usually coincidentally Malays and indians.
look.
i do insult about my own race too.
its not bout the skin color.
its bout the behaviour that's presented in public.
maybe it's a culture to bargain something that cost about $135 SGD to a mere $2.
i don't know.
but that pisses me off.
cause at least be considerate that people's running a business for public.
not only you.
be it whatever the race is.
even chinese aunties do that.
discrimination over here in sg usually isn't a natural thing.
it is forced as people tend to MAKE others discriminate.

- Crimson

CRANK.

I AM FEELING SO FUCKING CRANKY TODAY.
I FUCKING FEEL LIKE FUCKING KILLING PEOPLE.
I FUCKING AM CRANKY.
I FUCKING AM SO FUCKING IN A FUCKING KILLING MOOD.
FUCKING FUCK YOU AND FUCKING FUCK YOURSELF AND MYSELF.
FUCKING EVERYTHING LIVING ON THE THIS SURFACE OF THIS FUCKING EARTH.
FUCK YOU AND FUCK YOU TOO.
I WANNA FUCKNIG KILL YOU.
FUCK LAR.
FUCK YOU LAR.
FUCK EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Mouth Speaks Pictures.

i figured i haven't posted enough pictures.
even i myself find my blog boring.
hmm.
maybe i should.
although most likely things are gonna get messy for people to see it.
pukes pukes pukes.

oh well.
i often wonder why do people call people who commit suicide cowards.

do you know how hard is it to face death itself?
it's even harder than facing reality.

Though i'm obsessed with death myself.
but i dare admit i don't have enough guts to face it myself.
hence cowarding myself in this shell.

Death is life itself.
And Life is death itself.

imagine.
living with corruption and all that's going on.
I don't see the life in life.
It takes alot to live.
And it takes even more to die.

- Crimson

My Mouth Speaks.

As each day passes.
i wonder how much time is left.
i wonder how much time has left.
I ponder to live.
i feel closer to what i am now.
but yet drifting so far away too.
Grasping for my breath.
i knelt and cry.
why can't i just die.
wouldn't it be more beautiful if things just ended?
don't be a bitch bout it , Crim.


- Crimson