After A Fight.

It was only after a fight then i realised.
Sometimes it doesn't pay to be nice.
And it sure isn't worth it to throw your pride just to compromise.
This really is for every single thing you're going through in your life.

Like now.
His attitude towards me is better after i flared up and threw him a punch in the case of self-defence.
but the cops weren't called.
I'm too softed hearted.
I felt that it wasn't worth the guilt i'll have for sending someone to jail just because of a stupi fight.

Standing up for yourself and doing something that isn't what you want.
Sometimes really makes a huge difference in your life.
Sometimes the closer.The deeper the wound.
Sometimes.You just gotta reject yourself.
You can't show people whom you really are.
Why?
Because this society is so discriminative.
You have to compromise in order for everyone to be happy.
Neither do i like to put on a smile everyday at work.
But no one at work offended me.
They do not deserve my frown.
Pride is really important.
I used to fuck care bout it.
But maybe that's why i always get kicked around.
Once bitten.Twice shy.
Sometimes it's just about doing the right thing.
Sometimes it's about pride.
Sometimes it's just about the trust that's been betrayed.

Watched "ALONE" from the directors of Shutter.
I was expected a real good movie.One that will haunt me for months and i'll still get scared whenever i think of it.
But.
It was a huge disappointment considering that the director was from Shutter.
And Shutter was such a success.
The movie was focused more on shocked than haunt.
And quite off track at times.
They do not focus much on the point of the twins whereas more on the Love story.
:"I love you Wee(the lead).Why you don't love me??I KILL YOU!!!"
It turned out to be another psychopath in love kinda story.
bla bla.yeah.
Ratings? 4/10.

Busy

i swear to god.
i've never worked so hard in any jobs that i've worked for the past 6 years.
This is the very first that i'm actually overtiming without more than 10 sentences of complains.
probably because its a graphic firm and i like art.
But The Body Shop , Chanel advertisements?!
Well..do the best out of the worst situation.
i'm sleepy though.

work work work.sheeeeeesh.

bored.

i'm so bored in the office.
while readin through my blog.i laugh hysterically at my own blogfor its emo-ness.
its so bored i'm starting to day dream a lil.
i really don't know what to say actually......







bah.

Project H.O.D & G.A.N.M.

Outcomes of these two were better than expected.looks like i'm getting the hang of this.H.O.D approved and is already using.Now..there's just G.A.N.M left.

Whoops?HAHAHA

there are times when you know things aren't right.
Well.
getting kicked out is one thing.
But when you're a gossip bitch.
Don't contradict yourself just so you can make people eat their words.
And worst.
Don't be a coward.
Everything said seems to fall upon deaf ears.
BUT Then again.
As if anything i said drilled into anyone.
It was a good choice getting kicked.
like Finally.
oh well.
You win a lil.
You lose a lil.
You started this with someone.
You should have the courage to say it.
Instead of getting a sub to say it for you.
Well.
I ain't playin for just leisure.
It's my passion.
If the shoe doesn't fit.
Change it.
It's better this way.
simplicity is good.
Varities are needed.
Espcially when u know you suck more than me.
(this is a statement for all situations)
If you're gonna play things that sound like other bands.
Why not just play a tribute band?
If for 3 years and you can't tell the difference
From the past and the present.
Then there isn't any use for me to try.
Considering you can even say words like fall upon deaf ears.
It's so obvious that you're just bein the bias whom you really are.
Always following.
Not looking on your own account.
Even my peeps asked me why did i tone down so much.
Disappointed in only you.
But it's all ok.
Considering that YOU.
were too coward about everything.
I'm glad that i'm kicked.
Don't get me wrong.
Just in case you're too narrow-minded to understand what exactly am i talking about and go around telling the rest i'm pissed for the kick bla bla like how you usually will.
My point is.
I totally agree with the analogy of the shoes not fitting.
But just that considering i started this with you.
and am the closest with you among all.
You should have been the one who broke the news to me.
Instead of replying something so kiddish and making me eat my words.
I've no intentions of leaving with a bad end like how Iffah did.
But the way you put it.
It's simply so contradictive.
The other time when i asked to play one of my song.
You critisized it by saying it sounds indian without even trying.
You didn't play something because it wasn't your style.
At least i tried to compromise you guys.
But did you try?
So what rights do you have to speak of others?
Especially using the phrase "Falling unto Deaf Ears"?
I've totally nothing against the idea of kicking me.
But your cowardly and contradictive ways.
Just makes one wonder.
Are you still in your second childhood?
but anyhows.
I still thank you for everything that we have been through together.
And i thank you SpiralFall.
The experience i had with you guys was great.
Hopefully you'll be able to find the right drummer.
It was an experience i will not forget.
Thanks and Au Revoir.

Ciaos!

Grudge.

Man.
When you're more tolerant.
People take advantage of it as you're weak.
Fuck him.
If you don't like what people do.
Don't do it yourself first.
You've no rights to tell me off.
Better watch your words before i'll rip you off this planet.
And leave you half dead living with a living brain living in a dead body.
Mother Fucker.

DO NOT MESS WITH ME WHEN I'M NICE.UNDERSTAND?!

To:Mr mother fucker.
You're worst than this poor baby.
Because you lived but yet you're more screwed than him.
Lowest lifeform of this planet.
Waste to this planet.
Don't make me decapitate you.
You think you know me.


You're wrong...
Never judge the book by it's cover.

Especially me.