My Mind Speaks Days.

Sometimes its just funny to see some geeks trying to dress up like a trend whore.
they just put everything they have in their wardrobe together and go out.
not to forget their thick dosage of cologne on their body.

well..
things seem so simple but yet so afar and complicated.
respects and politics.
a mask borns with it.
often i wondered why am i born here.
often wondered was i even born.

though i still dislike this life of mine.
a look around at times..
makes me feel glad..
cause although isolated..
i'm still blessed with great people around me.
and i'm thankful for that.



but still...
i am still filled with hatred and anger within..
to the brim.

Death.

My Mind Speaks..New.

Man.i knew X-Japan was reunited.
but i didn't know that they had a new single!
and that single is for SAW 4's OST!
like what the hell.
and it fucking rocks.
it's been awhile since i listened to ROCK!!!!
i wanna do something like that.
but can i find the right people with the right sound?

so much has happened eh.
but then..
so little time for me to conquer.
Emotions has successfully been eliminated.
i feel so fuck good being so fucking heartless.
i feel even better after doing a corset piercing.
i wanna do more corset.
15 rings on each side along my spine.
that would be the ideal beautiful pain.

Tattoos anyone?
Tattoo EVERYONE!

i've never drawn so much in my life before.
and it feels fucking good to be drawing EVERYDAY.
I started to dream.
I was dreaming.
I'm within the dream.
I hope to be the dream.
I'm part of the dream.
The surreal dream.
The Illusionary Reality.

thINK.

My Mind Speaks ....thINK.

well..i'm done at Starmedia and now i'm officially a tattoo apprentice.
tomorrow will be the day where i start learning things.
its not that stressful learning.
its the financial cause i'm payless.
going crazy with mirgraines.
oh well.i guess this is the price i have to pay.
its ok.
not like anythting can be done.
Poland.
wait for me.
oh well...08.
its a little weird cause i just literally realised it's 08.
a new year.
hmm..
i think i got myself lost somewhere in 07.
hopefully it is a better year this year.


my new rap song.
goes something like this...

"Fiofiofiofiofiofiofiofiofiofiofio"

the title is "Fio".



i like being numb.
makes me concentrate better.
i feel numb.
but i don't think i am.
i hope i am.

The New Year.

personally.
i don't like new years(Chinese new year included)
i don't like christmas.
i don't like all these events.
i used to like it so much.
but not anymore.
2008.
by june.
i'll be an artist.
that's the deadline i give to myself.
i don't know why but i'm giving myself constant pressures.
new year's eve at 12 a.m i was on the train thinking bout 1 jan 08 without realising i was thinking something so far yet so near.
i still think the best way to celebrate is to order a feast and eat at home watching a good show.
oh.not to forget your pack of cigarette too.
never ever trust the atm machine during festive seasons.
fucking hell.
i never had a machine refusing to give me money...
when i had the money!
damn crap machine.
and i found out the best way for me to lose friends or
at least make them stop hanging out with me.
all i need to do is go to KFC.
i'm wondering if hun and fuckingemochristbibleboy will still
wanna hang out with me..hmm..

hmm.. i need to start drawing more often.
i've been stoning enough.
and i'm hungry.

anyways.
fucking new year.
but still..
happy new year.