My Mind Speaks Sadistic Desires.

once upon a time.
people used to say the happiest moments are priceless.
to live life with happiness so when it comes to the end..
you look back and smile.


fuck all that i'd say.
the happiest moments never come cheap.
and your life only begins the moment you hang your neck
unto the slipknot you've tied to your ceiling and it ends the moment you stop breathing.
altogether?
your life is worth bout 10 secs at most.

and that was quoted by a good thai friend of Elson's.
somehow i find it true.
very very true.

life isn't bout living in it.
it's bout what you've lived through it.
life only happens when you've finally lived through it.
death is a new life.

admit it.
love is the new hate.
hate is the new life.
in life you'll always need someone to hate.
maybe i've overdone that point that i'm failing so badly in love.
but nevertheless.
it doesn't bother me as much as it used to.
i can't commit as much.

maybe thats why rejections seem to be the new yes.



rejections and failures.
they are what makes a person stronger.


but i'm just not ready for that.
affected is what i am now.