My Mouth Speaks Voices....

On 28 oct friday around 2:48 a.m..during my guard rest at the guard duty for 4NTM.. i jumped up onto a 5 tonne(army lorry) to rest instead of bein in that humid tent which was build by me...i was restin my eyes and thinkin of Darkad's music in my mind..with all guitar sounds and drums only..all of a sudden......a voice spoke to me at my left ear....." Tian liang le.." ( its means the sun's up in chinese) in a very eerie , horase , old female voice...immediately i opened my eyes and looked around to see who the fuck was playing that damn prank on me...i could feel the hot air that came out from that person's mouth...but to my surprise..i saw nothing but darkness......
After that day...my old injury(injured left wrist) and my recent one..my sprained neck...started to hurt more and more...and at a very weird timing and odd tempo of pain...tsk....pains of pleasure i admire....but pains from unknown source...hmm....

My Mouth Speaks Ponders...

"What am i doing here man..? can't stand it..is drumming really my forte? i have to face these kinda reviews everyday, everynight...its haunting me...here i am..standing alone..facing all these shit once again..what the f*ck is going on in my life?..what the f*ck am i thinkin?...everythin's back to square one now...argg..frustration..anger..all on myself..yes yes indeed..i'm the master of all faults...but why?..am i the source of calamity?...abyssal intelligence...i have a mind which i prefer not to have..i have a heart..which i prefer to be dead..i have a body..which i prefer..not to be here...blood? tears? oh please...all these aren't called torment..look around you..newborns gettin killed..isn't that worst?..but isn't it even more tragical if that newborn were to survive?..i'm a survived abortion..with the masks i wear..i don't need a face anymore...Verbal Despairity..

My Mouth Speaks Silence...

"Brushing Trees..
Silent Deaths...
Stormy Night..
Useless Fright..
Part & Parcels of life...
I felt it on that knife..
Sadness flows out of it..
Madness comes with it...
Falling into the bottomless pit..
The place where i would fit...
Fighting through my life of agony...
Isn't the way to eternity...
I'm just a mere mortal...
Livin is this portal...
I lock myself out of this world..
I lock myself within my world...
Refusing...
Reflecting....
My tainted heart's drownin..
In this abyssal room of mine..
Where i worth nothing more than a dime...
I slit it..
To end it..."

My Mouth Speaks Heaven times,Hell's Torment

"Heaven's days you wish to stay..
Hell's time's as good as confine..
Projecting an image of my corpse..
Everything seemed so yesterday..
Revive,Review,Repent..
Totally nothing to comment...
Mortuary is the place..
Perfect for my face..
Kingdom of doom..
My Heaven...
This isn't my cue..
This ain't my queue..
Sons of greed..
Feed on me...
Tradegy waiting to be happen..
Nothing i feel isn't crestfallen...
All my feelings have been beaten..
My Desired Bloodbath.."

My Mouth Speaks Today..

hmm..while on my way to get some medication at e polyclinik..i was thinking to myself..Kns..why good times always pass so fast..whereas bad times siao siao sometime fast sometime slow?..like fuck lo..a mishap happened to me 2 years ago..but just seem machiam yesterday..why ah?..sibei funny...
nb..sibei sian lor..when got nothing to do..anyhow think think..think liao..all come back to sqaure one..nb cb sian ka lau sai..then go thing to do..somehow some knncb what..also will lead back to sqaure one..pcb..kns lor..how how how?....
My camp full of nerdy A level gaming freaking weirdos..
My surrounding full of nutcases(WAHAHAHA)
My life full of depression...
MY brain filled with RUBBISH!!
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.......Bloody Fuck..
like that cannot like this cannot..nb..play game..everytime kena kill...aiya..whatever i do i always get owned one de la..
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nb lao tur turtle...
sibei confussed....

My Mouth Speaks KnnLcb!!!!!

Today...081005 Sat morning..12:21a.m...I , Dogsoup...reviewing my purpose of life...F**k those..so frickin gay..wah f**k..Fireburn's(my band's bassist) blog so frickin violent..f**k..anyways...frickin hell today..suppose to book in for frickin confinement..cb...but fall sick..knn i thought need to book in..suck my balls hor..sick still ask me book in..but lucky nvr..see doctor..the doctor anyhow molest molest my hand only..touch me here here there there..CCB touch here touch there..machiam gay lo..frick lo..in camp..my mates everyday..frickin hell i mean EVERYDAY talking about that stupid game DOTA i also dunno how to play..everyday talk..hear already actually want to try but in the end they convinced me..frick lo..nothing going my way lo..CCB..those stupid ah bengs on the street...with those stupid golden mac donald hair..knn..look like frickin frick..2005 liao still living in the age of retro?...please lar! retro..also retro properly lar..and what?..stare at me and gimme that "stare smlj" look for what?? i swear lor if those frickin beng ever ask me one day..:"EH SIAO EH KUA SIMI LJ?!?" i will comfrim plus chop chop reply those nutcases :"KUA DE LJ SEH PANG TAO" stupid cock...pubic hair haven't grow finish wanna learn this kinda bullshit...frick lo...knn today in train..cb..so many girls..those "up the lorry" and "kena bang by train" typa girls..cb..ok la..to me they aren't that ugly..but they dress until so skimpy..thats not the point..but they think they frickin ayumi hamazaki lar!! CB!! i accidentally look at them only cause they were in that direction..then they gimme that "Look and blink away" thing..CB!! i never look at people's faces and label them as ugly lor!! Ugliness comes from the heart...but CB..those people..attitude really up the lorry plus KNN thier buang dress sense..PUI i see already vomit out what i ate for the past 6 months..KNN..wear skirt until so short..sit down cover until so gan kor....think i wanna look at your blardy panties? __ NEI!!! lim pei see panties that time u don't even know whats called mini skirts lo! CB! wanna look at her undergarments i might as well go department stores to look..or look at my own better...look at hers skali i vomit blood plus lose appetite..LCB..i cannot stand these kinda pple..heng i still got my mp3 with..no need to hear what kinda chee za voice she have..knn..i walk in orchard..see so many people...sibei crowded..frickin sian half...forgot today friday...LCB..block here block there...stare here stare there..LCB..see so many gay-act-japsters guys around..knn see already wanna slap thier frickin face...AH!! speaking bout slapping face..LCB my frickin platoon's 3rd sergeant NG YIXIAN..that blardy S.O.B from ex ACJC..LCB..don't think he was my senior he can come lao lan to me..CB i leave him alone in camp cause lim pei sibei stress..KNN LCB he everytime come bother me with those mindless frick up useless talks..say what:" hey ****(my name) me and Sgt Jiaqi already washed our hands off you..why can't you put in abit more effort in marching? bla bla..our new P.C is here he has fresh impression of you..don't give him bad impression bla bla..and the shit carries on..LCB i wanna slap his face inside out backside forward 360 degrees..i just tell him i don't care..so?.. CB..My new p.c here with fresh impression..so what? that arsehole S.O.B comfrim plus chop bad mouth me one...CB....CB lar..aiya dunno lar..stressed..go sleep now better or else blog too long..see liao eyes also pain..au revior - Dogsoup logging off..

My Mouth Speaks Hysterical...

Am i bein too hysterical?...Who Gives a Bloody Fuck??...Well you mean by the way how you showed your temper just now when you found out the limited edition figurine of Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children's SEPHIROTH was sold out?..and yesterday how you punished your most hatred sergeant with silence when he talked to you?..Nope..Not hysterical at all..hmm..Emotions..what are they?..Who Gives a Bloody Damn??..They are nothing but masks..Happiness...have you felt before?..what is it?...Who Gives a Bloody Shit??..Felt..now dead..All Lies..My smile is nothing but a presentation of false happiness...Dreams..Are they real??..Who Gives a Bloody Crap??...Dreams..are all those pains called dreams?..Is this pain i feel real?..Nightmares surround me...Love...a feeling? or a lie?..Godamn i'm only PSLE!!...Love in this real world..is nothing but illusions created by mankind....and its just another way of saying.."getting laid"...Hate?....i hate you~..you hate me~that's the wa..Shut up! Hate?..that isn't a word to me anymore..it is something that's growing inside of me now...its just something that's part of me living through the everyday that i live for...Who am i? Who are you? Who is he?...Stupid dumb fuck..look into the mirror!!...You are the soul you are...i'm nothing more than a mere illusion..he is just your imagination..you are numb..livin in a shell that don't belong..we are all on the same boat my girl...I WILL SINK BOTH OF YOU dUmB fUCkS!!..as i see the way "the" situation is going...we are all bound to sink...in this drop of abyss that we are livin in..Can we get out? WHY WOULD I WANNA?!?! it all depends...remember..you are who you are..you lie no one but yourself..true ugliness comes from the heart...if you get out..would you still be who you are?..or are you gonna be part of this shell..?..i...i wouldn't know..i haven't been there yet..i'm so confussed...i really don't want to see all these anymore...please.....WANNA DIE?!?! ....Death..somethin sad to cry about?..or a goal waitin to be achieve?..or a new path of life?..its all in your hands...in our hands...we are one...leave or stay..its all up to us...But...i don't know...Argg!!!! kill me please....ALRIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!...Shut up birdass sucking machine..I Really Wanna Cry It Out...But..I Can't..Nothing's Right And Worth Anymore...CRY BLOOD BITCH!!..crying wouldn't help..would it?..We shed tears..and we cry blood...suicide...weak or strong..whatever it is..one has its own points of view..why bother bout other points when you can't even handle your own?..I Really Don't Know...Please...HAH I'M HUNGRY!!!..Such trival stuff botherin you?.......Yes......WAHHAHA DO YOU HAVE A BRAIN TO START OUT WITH?!?!...SHUT UP MAN!!!ENOUGH ALREADY!!!..ARGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!..I'm Leavin!!!!!!...Escapin from your dreams..from your nightmares you may..but not reality...good night my girl....DAMN!!!i'm still HUNGRY!!