My Mouth Speaks End..

Finally back to my hive..
Bah its so fast..i'm in army for a year now man..got hair liao..
end of year already..christmas coming..new year approaching..
i don't know why..
i hate christmas..its not like..i dunno..maybe its just the envy that's getting to me..
i see so many people on e streets...couples..family..or whatever..
receiving presents..opening it so happily..i really feel envy..
cause such happiness never dropped by to say hi to me..for a very long time now..
i may be hangin out with ma peeps on christmas..but am i happy?..
Positively no..
times like that..really make me wanna tear..but..i'm just too numb to drop one..
its girly right?..bleah..
i dunno..i hate countdowns..i hate parties..
i've lost the feel of fun for all these joy..
maybe because i'm just not worth it?..hahahahhaa
i don't really care..just hope january comes asap..
when everyone goes back to thier hostile state i won't be such an oddball anymore..
Anyways..
Merry Christmas and a Happy Joyful New Year to whoever's readin Dogsoup's Haven..
Cheers~