My Mouth Speaks ..............

I am bored..very bored...very very bored...am damn bored.so damn bored.
It's really contradicting of me.to dislike them when my band's full of them.
i wanna jam....yawnz...there's nothing else better to do..i can't do no shit here.
so i decided to blog about nothing.
stressed.my band's crazy.i just got into this band.and they are telling me they are gonna record a full album and skip recording the demos.
woo...they have so much confidence in me? nuts lor.i haven't started laying out the structures for his crazy 5 mins with 10-over-different-riffs song.nothing fancy.but it's quite technical.die..die...die...die...just grind all the way...wahahhahahahaha
i think i'm probably the only one who listens to Technical Death there.
they only enjoy brutal death.and even named one of the songs "MatiMampos"(means die and die(more crudely)).
i feel retarded.but it's fun to jam lar.better than rusting.
yawnzzzzzzzz...so many side projects on hand...
ALBUM COVER FOR H.O.D!!!!!!!!! wahahahahaha my biggest one for now.
Herald Of Decay!!!!!!!!!! ROARRRRRRRRRRRR

Boredom took my senses away............*dances

My Mouth Speaks Mental Fucked.

Alot get the idea of S.M(sexually) the moment they hear me saying Hedonistic Masochist.
I don't really enjoy physical pain.well.sometimes.
but then again.what really gives me the smile on my face.

Mental Torture.

i'm just so addicted to it.
i've been told so too.
It will be better if it was a trauma.
like cause it keeps torturing and haunting you whenever u think bout it.
it warms my little heart whenever that happens.

now for sadness.
the thoughts that makes you cry.
no.i do not like it because i am emo.
i like it because it makes you think deeper into the situation that makes you go insane after digging deeper and deeper.

I inflict this unto myself too.
Instead of escaping it.
I grew fond of it.
This is love.

What i love best.
Fucking around with spoilt brats.
i'd love it to see them breakdown.
and you go like :"Aww.relax.everything's fine."
When i do that.
I am actually laughing and smiling hard at your face.
But if i keep quiet and proceed on without any hypocrisy.
it means i have my other reasons for doing so.not for hedonistic purposes.

Disorder?
i'm not really sure.but i seem fine.
well.maybe not to all.
but then again.
who cares?

The taste of mental torture is sweet.
The crave for it is strong.


I think i went wrong somewhere earlier in my life.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Yes.
I'm CrimsonWolf.

My Memory Speaks.

"With so much done.
With so much time that flew.
I refuse to accept the reality that has happened.
As every step i take slowly turn into memories,
I lost myself between present and future.
As knowledge grows,
The memory fades.
Soon, everything becomes obsolete.
No.
Intensed isolation will not help.
For forgotten is just a momentary issue.
As my body wither with age.
Everything that stood in the corner will bloom.
Knowing nothing,
Is knowing everything.
We were born pure with ignorance.
Yet die with such tainted mind of knowledge.
I've learnt how not to refrain.
And slowly live in pain.
As my mind and heart repels,
My body will just walk step by step as time ticks away.
And soon enough,
Every step turns into a memory."
- Crimson

" In the memories of Deary."
1999 - 2007

"Always loved you.And now you will be missed.Have a safe trip."

My Mouth Speaks Porn.

Till this day.
i still don't get it why some people call others who watch porn low-lifers or no-lifers.
Face it.
EVERY single fucking guy who's alive(including gays) have watched porn.
Otherwise how the fuck would you know what's porn?
Pot calling the kettle black.
Maybe it's less obscene to tell people you watch C.S.I espcially girls.
But then again.
Pornstars are actors.
It's just like a normal tv show.
It's like how some prefer to watch comedy and some prefer to watch drama.
It's really just the case of stimulation preference.
Why are there people narrow-minded enough to make a fool out of themselves?
Personally.
I love porn.
And i admire pornstars because some are really just that fucking beautiful.
And its really quite a waste that they are pornstars.
it may be a lower class of act.
but they have the guts to show their fucking pussies to god-knows how many people around the world.
Imagine.
You're famous for your pussy.
How many would do that?
Everyone has the rights to do what they think is right.
If you think porn is low/no-life.
Go to a porn director and tell him to stop producing porn.
By then.
I'd really pity your partner who will soon be suffering from sexual boredom.

Ah..Sasha Grey.

My Mouth Speaks Awake But Wasted.

it was weird.
Steven and Pornstar bought a drink for me.
named "WaterFall".
As i'm new towards alcohol.
i had no idea what the fuck was that.
i approached it with caution as the waitress performed her fiery act.
i was holding 2 straws.i don't know for what.and don't know when it got there.

When she was done.
i could hear Steven saying :" DRINK NOW YOU FAG!!!!!"
once upon hearing that.
i had a flash back of my SGT screaming his head of at me.
i immediately put the straw into the glass and drank.
Without knowing what the hell is it.

Everything was ok....
until he asked me to down a glass of beer.
ok.
1 down.
i was still ok.
i was thinking ok la.not so bad as a noob drinker.

Then Steven's friend dared me to down another.
i really detest beer.
but oh well..
for the fun of it.
i downed with another.
immediately.
i felt my mac spicy rising up to my tongue.
And from there.
i became the WaterFall.
i was sober.
but just puking non-stop.
Initially i wanted to hop around more.
but the state that i was in.
i believe i was only in the state to go home.
i was intending to go over to M.O.S to look for BF.
but i died before i could step out of where i was.

Darn.
but oh well.
no hang overs.
when i got on the cab.
there was another passenger.
an ah lian.
quite a pretty one i must say.
we both were puking out the unwinded window.
the taxi driver was her uncle.

oh well.

My Mouth Speaks Drinks Anyone?

I'm not addicted to alcohol.
the amount of times i went drinking can be counted with my fingers.
i can't get the hang of the taste.
but i do like the moment during where you're alf drunk till you knock your bed.
it makes you forget everything.
its good to forget reality.
people who know me will know.
i'm quite a fuckcarefuckcare.
i wanna get my illusions laid down.
can't seem to find anyone interested.
interested in leather and laces.
blood..
and pain..

darn...
oh well..

Let's get drunk.

My Mouth Speaks Wax.

Don't you like that wax that falls on your skin hot and drips down cold?
It's like how everything in life works.
It lands on you hot.
Leavin you all cold and numb.

Painful Pleasure.
Is What I Desire.
I Yearn for a blood fuck.
I am yours to suck.

As my knife runs on your skin.
I build my happiness on your misery.
I know you're requesting for more pain.


Slowly darling...
Slowly....

My Mouth Speaks Anger.

fucking shit.
i thought being clumsy's only for fat people.
fuck.
i'm probably the only fucker who can trip over his own foot for about 6 times while walking from the bus stop to the MTR station.
and probably the only fucker who can cut his finger accidentally on the same spot where he , a few months back nearly sliced the flesh off the finger.
fuck shit.
a wound over a wound.
and now i can't type properly.
fuck shit.

My Mouth SpeakSkaepS htuoM yM

Nothing like a fucked weekend..
I yearn that moan of yours.
The catastrophic moans.
Your endless mourns.
Drive my blood up my brain.
Pushin in on hard.
Waxing your sexy curves.
I tear your skin with my teeth.
To only hear you scream.
Every pitch from that scream.
Turns me on over and over again.
I'll tie you to the frame.
And wax you all over again.
i'll slit yr skin for the blood to run.
The only thing that really turns me on.
Not too hard and not too soft.
The amount that flows will be right.
As i bite your wound with my teeth again.
i'll make you scream in pain.

I yearn for your lust to stay.

Your cunt's all for me.
Your blood's meant for me.


Ah...