My Mouth Speaks Morning Stupidity..or is it?

you ought to realize that you're a mountain turtle when things around you seems
to surprise you in every way.

and also..
especially when you try to return the MRT ticket card the hard way.
by slotting it in over and over and only to realize...*sigh.
look at the picture description and you'll understand..






















so malu lor...
my "act cool" image gone...
gone...
Gone~!!!!!!!
everyone at TPY MRT that day must have been smirking inside them at me..
ohnoes~!!!!
gone...
i'll now sink into depression and be emo towards everyone around me.

My Mouth Speaks BMT days.

Ahh..there i was.the 18 year old wolf.
those were the dayssssssss..
a picture speaks a thousand words. =D

My Mouth Speaks Resistance.

i broke free from the ropes of torment.
and learnt the fear of self.
after walking a path of smooth.
i can almost feel again.
i can't let myself into this again.
i've to concentrate.
i'm beginning to fall.
no.it's just an illusion like J.
it will be gone in awhile.
i'm like a wounded bird..
reaching for it's wings.
to fly once more...
i can't afford this to happen now.
i can't afford to fall into another mindless agony.
grief upon my grave.
i lay there wishing for death.
for it's life that's death itself.
i can't afford to stay.



it's really amazing how army really changes one.
i've gained more self-control.
but it isn't enough to keep me away from stupidity and awakeness.
i've gone through so much not to be put down like that.
by myself.
not by anyone.
i can't control myself.
why is that so?
i'm struggling to keep my mind on path.
it's really hard.
especially when ability is not what you have on hand.
it's really dimoralising when you know it's wrong but yet you can't help it.
BULLSHIT .
some may say.
but you have to understand.
it's emotions that make a human alive.
though reality's harsh.
but we aren't robots.
some things are just not within our mortal hands to control.
what i'm talking bout..emotions..
it isn't bout EMO..u know..those on the streets kind..
i'm talking bout EVERY emotion.
be it bad or good.
as long as you can feel changes within.
it's an emotion.
that's my view.
don't agree?
fuck off.
no one's starting a mindless debate.
i'm just stating MY point in MY blog.
i'm a really pissed person.like everyday.
that doesn't mean i shouldn't be given another chance to feel.
but then again.
I DON'T WANT TO.
but i just can't help it.
i'm just too weak to fight against myself.
words can't really describe what i feel and think.
because there's little that a psycho can explain.
"a picture speaks a thousand words."

to summarise everything...

i'm just struggling.

- Crimson Wolf

My Mouth Speaks Myself.

I'm Crimson.
I'm currently in my early 20s.
I do nothing but slack and wank.
I have a pair of hands that does nothing but click into porn sites.
I have a pair of ears only for music.
I hate tattoos.
I hate metal.

ok.i'm just bullshittin myself.

I'm Crimson.
In my early 20s.
I do sketches.
And i love em.
I specialise in dark art.
Probably not very good.
But perfection is not an option.
I love tattoos and tattooing.
I love Music.
I am currently a single loser.
Who's always out of love.
And then be emo to people around me.
I don't know how i look like.
But my friends told me i'm eccentric.
I'm not a very nice guy.
I tend to fuck care at times.
I don't know what i am.
Or how i am.
And neither do i care.

I'm still bullshittin to myself.

Advertise!!!

The other day i decided to meet steven on a night for i was really dead bored and didn't know what to do.
Boy.
was i a stupid boy.
it just had to be the day...
where he cooked.
therefore.
to prevent from hurting his feelings further.
i decided to post a picture instead of insulting.
its a simple deduction from the experience.
in all my life.
i thought i've eaten the best omelette around here and there.
but for these 21 years of my life..
i was wrong...


you never know what's an omelette till you've tried Steven's 3 Layered kuey lapis omelette.




Hear'ye! Hear'ye!
Ladies and Gents.
Having difficulties in deciding where to eat?
No problem!!
Too late in the night for a meal?
No problem!!
Sick of eating normal meals???
No Problem!!!!
Introducing!!!! *drum rolls*

Steven Jr's Murder Restaurant!!!
GUARANTEE TO SHIT OUT THE CANCER CELLS IN YOU!!!!!

EVERYTHING COMES OUT AFTERWARDS!! YOU'LL BE LEADING A NEW LIFE!!

SO WHY WAIT?!?!?! COME NOW!!!
NEWLY OPEN AT SOMEWHERE IN TAMPINES!!

OPEN EVERY SUNDAY 24 HOURS!!!!

CALL : 9170**** FOR ADVANCE BOOKINGS!!!!!

NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




















You would never know what you just ate.
cause even him does not know.

Meet Kraztafruz.

this is my first piece of drawing that i have posted so far.
i know people have seen better ones.
but i just would like to justify this as a piece of art/drawing.

PS:strictly only the contrast and brightness have been adjusted.

ResuErection.

i can't believe what a kid you are.
i can't believe how u still chose to be so retard.
you can't stand what i am doing.
but yet you're doing it right now.
now you know how it fucking feels?
it sure feels fucking good.
i really don't feel anything you know?

you've been always pushing the blame on me while we were together.


You know how it feels?

i bet you do.
i smirk as u squirm in pain.

when i decided to take the blame.
To see me down is your aim.

now you feel what you've been giving me.

Even if you shut up.
you can never satisfy the other party.

well of course i should have figured out long ago that i wasn't good enough.
espcially when you brought in 2 guys.
why do you have to be such a bitch that you're not?

now..
You're just exactly like L.
You're just exactly like her.
You're doing everything she did.
You're acting exactly like her.

you're still cramped up in your own world.
even with apologises.
you still do not accept.
and said that i pushed the blame to you?

Now.

Who's the one who isn't satisfied and pushing the blame?
i took in the blame but you're just so..
Full of yourself.

Wake up.

You're not as hot as you think you are.
You don't have to do this.
You're not the "clubber" that you claim to be.
You don't have to do this.

i take the blame in and fully understood it.
which was why i apologised.

and now you're ranting as though i pushed the blame to you?

You're 20.
not 2 years old.

So start acting like one.

i'd like to know..
why did you get together with me for?
You thought you have feelings for me?
you wanted to experience?
you thought it would be fun?

cause you're so locked up in your own thoughts and neglecting the person i am and my actions that you've let your guard down so badly...
you fail to see what's actually going on.


what seems bad may be good.
wake up.
look.
realise.
do not judge the book by it's cover.
it's a bigger world than you think.
understand it..
what seems bad..
Might be good..
wake up..

My Mouth Speaks.Alien.

My conversation with my supervisor on msn....



Supervisor : u there

Me: Crimson was sent to outer space to kill aliens

Me: may i take a message for him?

Sv: tell ah khoon, jackie sent tat amendment since 2pm today

Me: O_O

Me: orh

Me: he go off to somewhere

me:later he come back the message will be sent to him via human language

Sv: thank you

me: thank you for using alienbot messenger.please come again.

Sv : O_O

me:Join our Alien Messenger Lucky Draw contest! And stand a chance to win a trip to AlienSpace for free!
Just keep leaving messages and your messages will be randomly picked!
And if you're picked , you are the WINNER!
So quick! leave as many/much messages as you can into AlienBot Messenger!
(Terms and conditions apply)

Sv:(*Terms and conditions apply) *apply to alien only

me:ya.which is why it applies to you

me : =D

me :no wait.

me : you TOO.

me : karen is an alien too

me : she is from planet Kukumonga

sv : *yawns

me : you're an alien too

me : just that you've been a human for too long

me : you've lost contact with your inner alien

sv : i m averi absent minded im frm which planet ar

me : yes i know

me : i know you came from planet blurrfusion

me : i understand your confussion and lost contact.

me : no worries

me : your inner alien will be soon revived by the great alieneader

me : he will then ressurect the alien that may seem dead

me : soon you will have alien seeds

me : and you will be sent back to planet BlurrFusion to regenerate the alien life-forms

me : i, Crimson(my human name) is actually Alien code : 16860116.

me : i was sent by our captain alieneader to look out for surviving aliens on planet earth.

sv : *yawns

me : i was told by an outsourced informant that Starmedia is really the nest of all alien breeders

me : therefore i'm here to kill the alien soldiers

me : and rescue the alien breeders.

me : one of the alien soldiers have been eliminated.

me : his human name was "Kah sing".

me : but his alien identity was really Uglien

me : the retarded alien from the planet of retard aliens

me : he was sent here to kill everyone with his mental retardation.

me : thankfully to our great alieneader.


me : he was spared.

me : he is now alive as a human for 4 more months before being sent back to alien nation

me : for further investigations on his brains.

me : this is an infomation leak due to bug / virus in ths alienbot messenger.

me : please keep these infomation to yourself.

me : thank you for using AlienBot Messenger.

me : Have a nice human day!

me : - Auto Shut down -



-END-

My Mouth Speaks Cranky.Very Cranky.

i am seriously really fucking pissed.
i've been so eaily pissed off lately and i don't know why.
firstly it was :"Help me do this!"
replies:"ok.tmr around 3"
replies me:" sure or not.don't later last min i need to find someone to help me"
replies :"ok sure.just a matter of time.its late"
Replies back :"i got someone else to do it"

i'd seriously say a big fuck you and a big middle finger to you.
seriously.

if you don't trust me or can't accept the way i do things.
don't fucking ask me.
if you fucking ask me.
then don't fucking find someone else.
it's just like you tell this buyer.
yeah i will buy your stuff.
when the buyer gets your order and all.
you tell him "hey i bought it from someone else"
you will gain no fucking respect.
because you do not respect others.

Stop asking people what the fuck did you do.
you are NOT fucking young anymore.
fucking wake up and be more fucking sensitive and considerate to the people around you.
you know.
i seriously didn't mind keeping in touch and all.
but when it comes to disrespecting.
i don't give a fuck even if you're my mom.

i'd fuck you upside down so hard to make sure heaven seems like hell to you.
don't come and tell me craps like :"i'm so afraid to talk to you because i am afraid to do wrong things."
Maybe that is fucking why you're always doing wrong things.

cause u never fucking learn from your mistakes.
instead.
you learnt how to RUN away from your mistakes.
and hence.
like i said.You never fucking learn.
i learnt mine.That's why the word JOAN is there.
how many fucking times do you wanna run?
how many fucking times do you just wanna enjoy the good and leave the bad?
it fucking pisses everyone off you know?
you may not know.
cause the people around you are just keepnig quiet.
carry on being like this and friends bid goodbye.
and might as well bid to yourself too.
cause if you don't know how to respect others.
your self respect must be really slow.

WAKE UP!!!!



Second case:
my fucking ex-band.
all of a sudden on this fine monday morning.
"i got something to tell u.our old drummer wants to come back and play.faz and azmi plan to put u to bass and then if the drummer not avail then you sub.thats what they plan for you."

look here.
it's not the matter if bout playing bass or not.
i can fucking play the bass if you want me to.
but fuck.
this IS a fucking band.
negotiate with your fucknig memebers instead of planning for them.
you're not paying them.

you are WORKING with them.
you should respect the roles for each individuals and DISCUSS with them how they feel bout the idea.
Fuck all of you.
Everyone who doesn't respect.
Always seems to be of the same blood.

Now.
refer back to my post previously.

all these isn't natural.
it is what you presented and then forced people to feel even though chances are given.
Points proven over and over again.
need i say more?

- CRIMSONWOLF