My Mouth Speaks Angelic Happiness..

today..is another happy day for me..
Got to know Angel..
it started off when me and my peeps were at plaza singapura's pastamania..
then i turned my head casually around..
and i saw her!..
Angel!!
(if you didn't know..i've "chio bu phobia")
so i turned my head back with my eyes shocked wide open..
i told my friend bout her..
then my friends started to tease me..
WAH LAU..damn embarassed..i quickly finished my drink..and RAN off
i really RAN man...but i took another glance at the beautiful Angel once more..
then..my peeps..approached her for her number!
she rejected the first time..
but when my friend actually went back and ask again..
she gave!! omg!!
this is like..the first time man!
I'm REALLY DAMN HAPPY!!
and to Angel's friends..i know they can't see this..
but my peeps told me that u helped out too..
Thanks alot..i really appreciate this happiness that's been brought to me today..
from the bottom of my heart..thanks..i've never felt this for quite some time..thanks
for the morale booster for my gig tomorrow!
thanks..
CheERS!!!!! \M/

My Mouth Speaks Doubting Year..

oh well..its the start of the new year i guess?..
fuck it..
i hate new year celebrations..except the money part..
new year really means :
new tattoo..

old life..

Fucked life..

hopefully this year..i'll be able to find
a girl whom i can devote to..and
hopefully accept the me who i am now..
i hope darkad continues..
i hope my metal project goes well..
i hope to get my tattoos done..
i hope to pay off my friends(if i can remember)
i hope to gain back my memory..
i hope that....i won't be so numb..
and my life won't be so fucked anymore..
i hope...to forget joan..its been a year already joan..
you've been on my mind too long..
i see your name everyday..
please leave my mind...
i hope all the miseries will end..
i hope to find myself..
i may be a guy..but that dosen't mean
i can be played all the time..
i too am a human..
but no one can accept me for who i am..
probably because of my interest and my culture?..
oh well..
Fuck it

My Mouth Speaks Blogging..

Hmm..i figured that i'm starting to blog lesser and lesser..thus people who used to visit here don't come very often because of that..oh well..its alright..
Actually i only blog when i feel there's something for me to say..not bloggin for fun..
its rather surprising that there are more than one you"s" here..
i blog when i feel like killing..
so does fire and spin..
i blog when i'm fucked..
so does fire..
etc..the list continues..
oh well..
anyways...happy new year to you all bloggers around..
hope you guys have msn..
its easier to talk..
a blog is just an update in case u can't chat..
i don't know what am i talking about anymore..
shit..
my mind is blank..pardon me..
in anyways..
in dogsoup's haven..
there are more than one dogsoup talking in each entry..
cheers...

My Mouth Speaks Torture..

Back from hell..
I had a 4 days and 3 nights outfield..
Everything wasn't that bad..
just that i forgot to bring my field pack..
That contained my extra uniforms and stuffs..
caught under the rain..
COLD LIKE FUCK..
STINK LIKE FUCK..
i swear never to make mistakes like that again..
but i manage to tahan through the shit..
but until the last day..
i was "CHOOSEN" to be a casualty..
its unlucky and lucky..
LUCKY : i escaped extra training..
UNLUCKY : the medics are noobies..
I was actually a K.I.A aka Killed In Action victim..
But my sergeant EXCHANGED my casualty card with me..
Thus me having his "injury"..
aka..
Gunshot : PENIS
Fuck..
I got I.V"ed" aka on drip..
kena poked by some huge ass needle..
by some unprofessional medics..
kena poke 3 times..
fucking pain..
now..
BLUE BLACK..
PCB..
i swear never to be a casualty in outfield again..
i fuckin swear man..
Pain..

My Mouth Speaks Hatred..

Fucking Hell..
i seriously don't know whats going around me lately..
but i'm fuckin pissed off with people all around me..
my "landlord" simply CANNOT be a friend..
he's a complete mother fuck..
all he has in his fuckin mind is his fuckin girlfriend..
fucking hell..we used to be good friends..
but fucking hell..now he's a fuckin walking wax figure..
I FUCKIN HATE HIM TO HIS GUTS.

i really..really...really..Fuckin hate my new
platoon commander aka officer..
he is a frickin two headed fuckin snake..
with a mentally of a kid..
and he's fuckin 25 - 26 ...
he thinks he's fuckin mature..
he comes to me and TRIES to
get in to my life..by saying if i need help
or whatever and whenever i feeling no happy talk to him..
fuckin hell i told him..
Unhappiness is MY Happiness..
FUCKING HELL
I SERIOUSLY DO NOT KNOW WHATS
GOING ON WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!
Argg..kill me..

My Mouth Speaks Dreaming..

Hmm..
I think i'm dreaming..
I've finally gotten my most desired pair of shoes..
I went out without a flaw happening..
It feels too perfect to be true..
Its weird..
But going to go book in soon..
Thats the turn off part that woke me up..
Oh well..
You cant have everything in life i guess...
But 11 more months nia..
Heh..
Going to india for 2 weeks in march..
damn..
here i come cury soda..

My Mouth Speaks Inner Child..

Hmm...
I wanna go shopping..
i wanna get some black clothes for CNY..
Comfrim kena Fuck inside out left right up down 360 degrees again..
Every year CNY wear black..
Like going to funeral they say..
Farq~
Hmm...
I still have a dog stuffed toy with me..
That i use to hug every night to sleep at home =D
It was given to me by my mommy when i was young..
I kept it cause it was the best memory..
And the only thing that keeps some happy
memories alive...
I like stuffed toys..somehow..for a reason..
Hmmm..
Its been raining ever since christmas..
weird..thought it should be sun shine and stuff..
Since the rainy season's over..
I keep forgetting what i wanna say..farq..
Drum Drum Drum!!!!!

Bleah...
So many people outside..
Damn sian to squeeze with all em people outside..
But to kill freedom...
I've no choice..

I LOVE TO TEASE MY FRIEND!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA
He's with his girl for 4 years..
so the last time i questioned him bout his sex life
which was almost 1 to 2 years ago..
He said she's still a virgin..
I bursted out laughing..
He say some stuffs la..
but scared later i say..ruin his private life..
So i don't be so mean la hor~ =^-^=
Act cute only..
Then a few hours earlier..
I just questioned him again..

Dogsoup : " Oi you fuck your girl already or not..?
4 years i don't believe you never fuck her.."

Pizhu : " Dunno la~"

Dogsoup: " don't shy lei~!!! say say lei~~
i everytime got girlfriend you first thing is
ask me bout all these bullshit..don't come act shy"

Pizhu : " got la got la aiyo~"

Dogsoup : " *expression of =D* WHAT STYLE?!?
*Burst out laughing*

Pizhu : " *shy laughs* Normal lar~!

Dogsoup : "How many times?!"

Pizhu : " Once la~!"

Dogsoup : " *slowly creeps up to him* *points at him*
*LAUGHS HYSTERICALLY*

Pizhu : " FUCK YOU LA~!!!!! LAUGH WHAT?!"

true enough..yesterday..
i was looking for something...
Then i pulled out his drawer..
I found that the two box of condoms..
That my mom's friend passed to her..
Mom passes to me..
Me passes to pizhu..
Was almost 9/10 used..
I laughed to myself..
Retardation..

Hmmm...
i wonder...
How do girls feel when :

A guy asks for her number..

A guy who presents himself in a horny manner..

A guy who has a huge crush on you but too shy to say..
(but you know it)

A guy tattoos your name onto his skin..

Through pms..

The feeling of being loved more than to love..

The inetercourse..

Blah...i can't really think up of any now..
Brain isn't working..
i had alot of questions in mind though...

" The growth's done..
Now the leaves are coming..
Its time to leave to pot..
A voice within askin you to stay..
You will miss the memories of bein here..
You know you'll never set a foot out of here..
The child within's pulling you down..
Your mind strains to get out..
The restriction's getting too far..
The flower ain't bloomin..
For it has too much burden in it's roots..
Every flower wants to bloom too..
But no matter how hard you try..
It will never bloom..
The tears and cries can only be seen and heard..
Inside...
The pain and memories..
Can only be erased with death..
I've never felt the great sun light..
And water...
For all these years..
I can only.....
Sulk and cry..
I'm the only one left around..."

My Mouth Speaks Hard Ways..

Finally back again...
Yesterday..we did a 8 km route march..
My appointment in my platoon is a Law Gunner..
As you've read in one of my previous entry..(the one with animation of me getting injured)
But it was a real hindrance to carry that fake law tube and walk..so i decided..
To change with my friend..
A Machine Gun Gunner..
So i carried the machine gun and walked 8 km..
And ran 150 metres after walking..with that gun..
But it wasn't the weight..
It was em damn blisters that's killing me...Argg..
My damn officer was more like Route Run than march...
Suppose to relac relac walk but he knn..
Fucking selfish..walk himself so fast..expect us to catch up..
Mother Fuck..
If only i had bullets for the machine gun..
I hate his guts to the core..
Stupid new ignorant childish bastard officer..
Somemore my platoon commander..
Sucks balls bastard !

I was randomly watching a show on chan 8 last night..
At around 1 a.m...
It was a Chow Yuan Fatt 1988 show..
Old School !
It started off with a happy scene of a construction working dad
sending his son to work..so it was obvious that they were poor..
and a broken family...
It started off quite happily till the mother came into the picture..
And that's where all the memories come to me...
A flashback from the past..
I know everyone has their ups and downs...
But why..must it be ME?
My life's percentage that i've lived for.. 100%
My mom staying with me's percentage... 40%
Is it really that hard to be with your mom?..
I don't get it..
I'm so numb now..
This fate is worst than death...
Fuck it...
Back to the subject..
The father died in the end after the mom decided to withdrawl the plan
of going to the states and be with the family..but he died.. so yeah..
Fuck it..

Anyways..on last tuesday..
My company had nights out..
Hung out with my buncha homies from camp..
When to the arcade...
Was playin some games..
When the counter girl caught my attention..
She's not all that beautiful...
But attracted me la...
I Like !
It wasn't that much to me..i mean..just see only ma..
Then my cb phideophile(however you spell it) friend..
Go ask for number..
Supposingly for me..
Stupid Boy !
Wah Lan!!! i never had that intention..
Well..maybe i did la..but no guts to go ask..
But he go ask..
Then i frickin ran away..
Damn Pai seh LA!!!
Then she say she got boyfriend..
Awww so sad hor ?
like machiam love story..
cock sia..
Even if get her number..i also dunno what to do...
So its rather pointless...
I'm not really the thick skinned type...

Anyways...
have jammin later..
I'm hungry...
I've changed my mp3..
Listen to it..its nice.. =)
Btw..
Question :
Gangsta Punk( spinnee ) : how you know my age?
Fireburn : i forgot what i wanted to ask you..

Now playing :
Save Me (Lyrics) :

Well I've got a candle, and I've got a spoon.
I live in a hallway with no doors and no rooms.
Under a window sill they all were found, a touch of concrete within the doorway without a sound.
Someone save me if you will,
And take away all these pills.
And please just save me if you can from my blasphemy in my wasteland.
How did I get here? And what went wrong?
Couldn't handle forgiveness,
Now I'm far beyond gone.
And I could hardly remember the look of my own eyes.
How could I love this,
A life so dishonest,
It made me compromise.
Someone save me if you will,
And take away all these pills.
And please just save me if you can from my blasphemy in my wasteland.
Jump In the water
Jump in with me
Jump on the obsessed
Lay down with me
My heart is questioned to answer
Is why, why
Someone save me if you will,
And take away all these pills.
And please just save me if you can from my blasphemy in my wasteland.
Someone save me
Someone save me
Somebody save me
Somebody save me
Please don't erase me

My Mouth Speaks Work..

ARgGgg!!!
I can't believe this!!!
Today's da last day i'll be out relaxing!!!
ARGGGG!!!!
I CAN'T BELIEVE I SPENT MY WEEK AT HOME!!!
DOING NUUTTSSZZ!?!?!?!?!?!??!
BrAaAaAaaH~!!!!!!!
Farq..
Ho Hum.....
I keep forgettin what i wanna say..
I wanna get s lil star on my middle finger...
Stuuuppiiddd...
Grrrr...
Oh well..i guess its about time i should start
Lookin for some cash earning things to do..
Besides sellin mah arse..
Its still a virgin..
Runnin outta cash...
Need to look out for a 1 room flat...
Needa move out after this year...
Argg..My brain's not workin out well..
Sigh....
MY BLOG'S MP3 HAS A DAMN PROB!!!!
cannot play properly..turbanation..
Had gastric pains last night...
Oh yeah~!
I was talking to this lady i knew on the net..
She's 51 so don't even think about it..
She told me bout something like this spiritual thingy..
Something to do with "Chi"..
I thought she was joking..
Until she told me(not asked)..
: " You are havin some prob with your tummy..
An aching neck..and lemme see....
And dry skin..
On your sole of your foot.."
I went O_O ' ' '
ALL HIT ON THE BALL LA!!!
My foot's like frickin wall cracking..cause of training..
I am suffering from some kinda foot rot thing..
Fuck...
My neck was indeed aching like a pundeh..
And she's in London..
I suspect she has a USB port somewhere in her brain..
Anyways..I'm going back to hell later..
Sigh..Won't be ranting for some days..
I'm actually..happy enough that there's readers reading
Dogsoup's haven...surprised too..
Pardon me for the childishness you read here..
Thanks~!
Have a great week..Au Revoir

My Mouth Speaks The New..

Well well..if it isn't the damn new year again..
Well..it started just fine..all that fine..
So let me try to elaborate my fine new year happy events..

1 ) My mom fucking lied to me fucking again..
For fucking god's sake for all these years how many damn times does she
wanna fucking lie to me?!
Disappointed..

2 ) Ran out of cash..

3) FireBurn fell..

4) 2 pieces of fucking bill from the past..
Adds up to $2000 +

5 ) Can't remember...

Oh well the major event was that fucking event with my mom..
don't come up to me with craps like..
" Event with your mom? so you fucked your mom?"
i swear to fuckin god..
You'll regret it...

Oh well fuck it..its officially now 01 jan 2006..
gettin older and older each year..
Feels kinda reluctant to face THAT particular fact..
Bleah..
Everyone's so happy everywhere..
ARgggG...makes me sick..
*Grunts* *GROWL*
GrrRrRrr....

I wonder if its because of the way and the enviroment i've been brought
Up thats why i can't feel all these joy so easily?..
Geez..i wish i was young again..
Where probelms don't exist..
Where money comes from the "sky"..
When love comes easier than fuck...
When girls are easier to sian..
When marbles were still in trend...

New Year Huh..?
I ought to do something akward and sickening..
Something i've never done before..hmm...
I wanna dye my pubic hair..
i wonder if it takes in colors easy..
Will it affect mah brother..?
Centre parting for it?..
Skali later rot....
I should get a weird hairstyle too..
My current one is...screwed..=Ho Hum~~
New Year..
Will it be good?..
Fuck You..?
Fuck Off...?
Fuck it......